I get irritated so easily these days; every little thing pisses me off. How someone is heading to college and I'm not, yet. Well; I am, just in 3 months. And my boyfriend's already in a college, right after school ended. I mean, okay; call me insecure and all but I'm jealous of those girls who get to see him in class even if they don't like him or anything.
Maybe my period is coming, I'm not sure. I haven't been counting the days.
And... I've been thinking... Whether or not I should continue singing... I don't know. I... Really don't.
Then, I also, at one point have felt I just want to give up on so many things. Idk.
I'm sick of being told around.
So now that has calmed down... I'm just gonna sit here - talk about that guy named Near whom I wish I do not miss. I miss him. But not in that sense like I miss Max... Just... Near. It's Near. He was my best friend.
He knew I was claustrophobic. He accompanied me in case I might faint in the crowded room. He talked to me as I drew a flower and drew a caterpillar to accompany the flower. He drew a body on my butterfly wings. In a way, he completes me in wholly different way than Max does but I know I'm not in love with him. I know it well. He's not the boyfriend material. In fact, he makes things complicated... But that's him. Like a girl, he has strange mood swings. He talks to himself during exams and he sang "Can't Take My Eyes Off of You" to me. He asked me right to my face if I could be his partner forever.
And of course, it was a straight "No" from me. But we both had a good laugh at that.
Right now, I just miss having someone like that accompanying me after school.
Look, to be honest - I really never asked for siblings. They all hate me. What's the point of me being here anyway. Maybe I'm better off not existent. Then they don't have someone to scream at them every time they make a mistake.
So you ask me, why don't I just stop doing so?
BECAUSE DAMMIT MY PARENTS GREW ME UP THAT WAY.
Every time I make a small mistake they point it out in the public, tell the whole world how I'm such a not ladylike person, always angry and so scary. Look at yourself. Of course I grow up to point out people's mistakes in their faces and the whole world.
OH YEAH so Chou screams at you when you make a mistake or act like a rascal. Is that my fault? YEAHHHHHHHHHH ALWAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. "I HATE YOU SISTER" "I HAVE THE MOST STUPID SISTER ON EARTH"
WHY OF COURSE EVERYONE WANTS AN OLDER SISTER WHO IS NEVER ANGRY
Even Chou wants a place to depend on.
1. Who's your favorite TT character?
2. Second favorite?
It's either Robin or Raven or Beast Boy... I really can't tell.
3. What's a character you think the series could've just done without?
Terra. Even though she made a drastic change in Beast Boy but... It really didn't work so well.
4. What's a character you REALLY want to strangle?
Jinx. She's just so stuck up...
5. What's your favorite episode ever?
Date with Destiny. ;DDD
6. Do you read the comics at all?
Uh... Some... But it looked a bit too mature for my eyes.
7. What's your OTP (One True Pairing)?
8. What common pairing makes you cringe?
Terra/BB. It's wayyyyyy too corny.
9. What's your favorite Badass Moment in the series? The moment when a character you like is really, well, BADASS!
Whenever Starfire fights against her sister. Yeah. Those scenes had always been awesome and badass.
10. If you were a superhero (or villain) in the show, what kind of powers would you have?
Hmmm... The ability to manipulate metal or weapons. 8D