So now that has calmed down... I'm just gonna sit here - talk about that guy named Near whom I wish I do not miss. I miss him. But not in that sense like I miss Max... Just... Near. It's Near. He was my best friend.
He knew I was claustrophobic. He accompanied me in case I might faint in the crowded room. He talked to me as I drew a flower and drew a caterpillar to accompany the flower. He drew a body on my butterfly wings. In a way, he completes me in wholly different way than Max does but I know I'm not in love with him. I know it well. He's not the boyfriend material. In fact, he makes things complicated... But that's him. Like a girl, he has strange mood swings. He talks to himself during exams and he sang "Can't Take My Eyes Off of You" to me. He asked me right to my face if I could be his partner forever.
And of course, it was a straight "No" from me. But we both had a good laugh at that.
Right now, I just miss having someone like that accompanying me after school.