All of the sudden I feel like crap.
Alright, to be honest. I went to the motivational camp. Practically everyone was dressed up, all pretty and sexy. And I'm just like that, in my school uniform. I already felt under-dressed.
When we went to the dorm of the camp, I took charge of taking care of the dorm key. Opened the door and all these girls just hit me to the wall; all just to fight for which bed they want. Yeah, my camera hung by my neck, and they hit me facing to the wall; meaning I pretty much got injured by that moment. Because of my camera.
Everyone took off their veils, revealing all they have. Each of the clothes had to show at least their chests. I still haven't even taken off my uniform yet. I swept the sandy floor of the dorm. Oh, guess what? Got hit.
Worse than that, some of them didn't even know I exist. Like, "OMG who is that girl sweeping the floor?" or "Why is she even sweeping the floor?" or "SHES IN GRADE 11!!? SO SHORT!"
All that, really; just made me feel down and now I'm in this abyss of insecurity. Not just that, I feel like I'm not good enough for Max.
Like I'm just this tomboy-looking girl who is so short, and such a midget and she doesn't wear anything feminine at all and all she ever does is just say weird things.
Yeah, I'm sorry. I'm really upset right now. Crying bitter tears.