Why does love have to hurt so much?
I wonder, really. My reason is because... Of Adelle. She is beautiful, smart, her parents know his parents and she loves him. Probably as much as I do. Probably more than I do love him. She's the kind of girl he wants, but I don't know why he's still here with me. Even when he's still here with me, he is still a little hesitant to say that he loves me.
It does feel like I'm holding him back, because I don't want to lose him. Because I love him too much and to me, he's the only person whom I'd want to hold so close to my heart. He was my first kiss, my first hug, and my first love. I don't want to lose it all. It's been four years. I don't stay with the same person for four years for nothing.
I am jealous of Adelle, of everything she has. But I have myself and whilst I still have Max, I will keep loving him and proving to him that I love him. Even if the two of you will marry one another.
I love Max.